Blog posts are funny things. I didn't realize until I was reading someone else's blog that they are basically backwards. I understand having the last post first but if there is any order to them you really need to go to the first post and start there. Mine don't matter because it's just the flotsam that floats around in my head and I get it out here so more new crap can collect.
I was reading a blog that had an ongoing story on it so I realized if I do get my book on here at some time it will be from end to start. But what if you have a bad day and write one that doesn't interest anyone ? It's kind of unfair to some bloggers who want their stuff to be read and I guess commented on. [ I don't want comments so I have disabled it ] Why would you want a bunch of people you don't know making comments ? I'm insecure and self concious enough without being judged by people who don't know me. Anyway the one I was reading was really interesting so I started from the beginning and am working my way through it. She's a really talented poet but a little maudlin. I know most poets are supposed to be tortured souls but I prefer inspirational ones. If I want to be sad I have tons of movies for that but I prefer my reading to be more upbeat. What a joke , I will read almost anything , it's compulsive for me. However I do tend to find myself drawn into it so I prefer something not too dark, depressing , or too difficult to understand. [don't talk down to your audience] . In my loft upstairs I have two walls of bookshelves which are full, not with , books for looks, as the designers say but these are my friends. Some of them I have had since I was very young. Some of them made me think , some made me cry, some scared the hell out of me , some of them saved my life. I f not for them I may have not been made to see that there was a whole world out there and guess what , for all the rest of you assholes who say I'm not normal, you better fucking believe I'm not normal and I'm damned if I want to be.
Normal... has there never been a more ridiculous word. Who decides what the norm is. All the ridiculous lemmings who flock to Twitter and Facebook and anxiously count their friends everyday proudly announcing when they have reached what they consider a goal of I suppose , friends ? You do realize these people could be baby rapers or wife beaters or just plain white trash [ this country's greatest resource ] and you call them friend. Friend to me is something completely different. These social networking sites have helped many poor pathetic souls [ I am a perfect example , look how I use it ] but they have cheapened the use of the word friend.
I know some people who call every single person they have ever met in their entire life a friend and if they have met them more than once they will be their oldest and dearest friend.
Bollocks...It reminds me of the old saying
Be not afraid when foes appear
Preparing for attack
Fear rather friends who smile and fawn
Then stab you in the back
Josephine Harkay
Friend to me means something else
A friend is someone you can call to bail you out of jail
A true friend will be sitting there beside you laughing about what a great time you had
People who are desperate for you to be their friend are incomplete and if you are incomplete also you should get together with this person. If however you do not need other people to validate your feelings you need to stay away from these desperate people. They are emotional vampires and will never ever let go unless you beat them off with a stick. With some and by that I mean [ Taurus women , but this is another post ] even if you beat these bitches they refuse to let go for any reason. After all many years ago you told them you liked them so they feel you have to live up to that statement no matter how much your feelings have changed since then. It's funny but it's one of the reasons I picked KCR as my imaginary lover. By that I mean Amanda deCadenet. The ultimate Taurus woman. My husband is a Virgo and was surrounded by Taurus women. His mother , grandmother, ex wife, sister in law and two aunts were Taurus women. Hateful viscous women. Not Amanda , I mean , I don't know her. I am going by my own personal experiences with the hateful bitches so when I found out about Keanu Reeves and Amanda's [ according to her ] life long love for each other it made him even more unattainable in my mind therefore being the perfect muse for my fantasies. You must keep in mind that for an imaginary lover to stay that way they have to be completely unattainable. Otherwise say if you used a neighbor or co worker you could be tempted to try and make it real and some people have developed fantasies about famous people that they make real in their own minds even though the famous person hasn't a clue as to their demented fantasies. They are demented you know but harmless if done properly.
That why he had it all , dark hair and eyes, great voice, Shakespearean, nice guy, smart, self effacing and yes , I am human , devastatingly handsome and hotter than hell. Amanda was the key though. I will NEVER EVER get involved with a Virgo who has Taurus women clutching onto him. I would bet you there are more Taurus women in his life. They go after Virgo men because Virgo men are weak compared to these bull women. They push and bully everyone around them to get their way. TW's as I will refer to them now use guilt. I despise people who use guilt and I refuse to do it even if it means I get fucked . I don't care I can't stand people who use guilt. TW's will remind you constantly of absolutely any , little , tiny , thing they ever did for you and by damn , they expect you to thank them over and over and over and over , see what I mean ? They are some of the most completely boring and exhausting humans in the world. And you always owe them , for what ,usually nothing but they will make you feel as though you owe them so much you have no hope of repaying their imagined debt so they feel completely self righteous in demanding for the rest of your entire lifetime and the next that you owe them and always will. This is what I mean about exhausting. Other people will write them off and be happy to say good riddance but Virgo men buy the bullshit plus they like the fake support the TW's swear they give. Look closely , who is really getting all the help and support ? So you can see feeling the way I do about Virgo men and Taurus women Keanu Reeves has been the most perfect imaginary lover I could have ever picked. Of course when he meets someone and falls in love I will be devastated by the loss but not betrayed because I wish him luck in everything and that includes finding his happiness. I am grateful for the times we have had and will be " forever his slave" but I will let him go. I love him unconditionally. He doesn't have to love me back.
Cheers , Amelie
