Can you imagine what it is like to be a childless , not by circumstance but choice, woman in today's world of baby bump and forced child support and the reprehensible , SINGLE MOTHER.
No child deserves a single mother. I had a single mother. I know there must be some out there who truly love their children and will sacrifice in order to do their best in the raising of that child. I just haven't met them yet. Right ? I mean they are out there somewhere , they have to be. Right ?
My experience is just the opposite. Over the years I have listened to women plot and scheme and even lie to guys about it being theirs. They think they are gaining power over him by getting pregnant and being able to force him by societal conformity to be her little puppet walking around with her hand up his ass and his balls in her pocket. Oh , and the kid , well they served their purpose but they don't really want to be bothered by them anymore. Here's some money go find something to do. Women have given more thought to what shade of lipstick they are wearing than they do to getting pregnant.
We are asking for trouble. Men are going to revolt. Some men have already decided , well since I will be in her prison for the rest of my life I'll just kill the bitch and go to another prison. It used to be the men had all the power and that wasn't right either but what we have forgotten is that all power corrupts , ALL. No one is immune to the aphrodisiac of power. Few can wield it with fairness and mercy. I wouldn't even want to try. The part that bothers me the most is how much women want to be men now and , it seems men wanting to be women. No wonder the kids are pissed and fucked up.
We did it. As a society we have allowed it to become a farce to become parents. We no longer hold parents responsible for their children. Why ? Can you remember yours saying "As long as I am held responsible for you you will do as you are told." We need to hold them responsible again. We also need to hold women responsible for their own bodies. The poor helpless female who couldn't help getting pregnant is the biggest con of all time. Look around , doesn't she only manage to get pregnant when she wants power over a man ? Once they get that they manage to have sex without getting pregnant again until they need to excerpt power over someone again.
If a woman were to tell you ok, we'll have sex but if I manage to get myself pregnant it will cost you oh , 700,000 at least and you will have no life beyond the one I allow you to have for at least twenty years and you will do as you are told or I will use Society to keep you in your place. How many guys are going to jump on that ? Then the ones who did would deserve everything they get.
But that isn't what she says is it ? More like don't worry baby I'm on the pill, or the doctors told me I can't get pregnant except for a miracle. All that bollocks that men buy into in order to get some pussy. No matter how stupid the male gender is I still don't think it's right to entrap them and use them the way women do.
You know what they tell each other? Don't worry once it's here he'll love it , if we left it up to men there would be no children, it's really all they are good for , how else are you going to stay in his life if he leaves you ? I don't care about the women , they live their own hells every day for the sins they commit and their bills will come due , it's the kids and what's done to them that pisses me off. They are almost throwaways, trotted out for the public when it suits the purpose, oh look at me and what a good parent I am. I'm my child's best friend. They don't need your pathetic ass as a friend , they need a parent. Yet we celebrate them constantly with their precious little baby bumps and their ridiculous names [Apple, come on] oh and of course their being in a bikini two months after the baby is born. All the importance is placed on the mother and God doesn't she lap it up. Father's are sperm donors and paychecks. Kate Hudson is a perfect example when she said " I don't call him my fiance I call him my baby daddy." He's not a man he's a donor.
Oh well I've waxed on enough about this. Mother's Day is Sunday and it hasn't been the greatest of days for me. I'm used to feeling left out though so I guess it could be worse. I could have gotten pregnant merely because I felt left out and not getting my share of attention. I could have created a human being for all the wrong reasons and have to live with that. I chose to do something else , I used birth control. It was my choice and I accept that.
I have a dream child. She is the perfect child and I am the perfect mother. We all know that only happens in fantasies and that is what she is. I have a fantasy lover and a fantasy child. It's all in my head and of course now here but at least I'm not hurting anyone. No one but me anyway.
I can live with that even though it means I will never have the real thing. There are worse things.
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| Jocelyn Felicity means just and happy |
Isn't she lovely , I keep her this age because right now "She thinks I could rope the moon , in her life there is nothing I can't do." John Michael Montgomery.
She will never be hurt by a stranger or a loved one. She will never suffer or sacrifice. She will never leave me to find her own way. She will never live , except in my own demented mind. She is safe there and here. It's so wonderful to share with this blog without worrying about people judging me and my actions or forcing me to defend my lifestyle.
This is the most narcissistic thing I have ever done. This blog is all about me. It's my journal of sorts but with much less chance of being discovered and ridiculed. My mother went thru everything , I had no privacy and my husband is the same. Forget about a diary or journal. The guilty are always trying to find something to use against someone else. I would never share with anyone the thoughts I'm releasing here. It's not my way. However I am not going to dismiss the cathartic relief I feel at getting some of this out of my head and putting it away. Whew.
Oh yes by the way just so you know I'm not completely wacko this is not mine and Keanu Reeves [my imaginary lover , see previous posts ] love child. He doesn't know about her and she doesn't know about him. You know how you can make that work ? Only in your fantasies.
Here's to yours...
Cheers , Amelie
