I've been getting ready for Chinese New Year.
Finally in for the evening and ready to enjoy the next few days reading , cooking , hopefully sleeping and taking some time off to recharge.
I washed my favorite Egyptian cotton sheets in rose water and picked up a dozen pink roses. If you know feng shui you know what my wish for the new year is.
It's the year of the Water Dragon , anything is possible.
All you have to do is wish for it.
C'mon man a billion Chinese people can't be wrong.
I don't know if it's because it's the dark of the moon or if I'm giving off pheromones or something but every where I went today it felt like people were being extremely friendly.
By people I mean guys.
Not just the young ones today but it didn't help that I saw Chris again. He has never worked on Sunday before and wouldn't you know he working the liquor vault and I had to get some wine.
At least we weren't alone in a closed space this time but it was still so intense. Then right after when I was paying for the roses another young one was giving his all and this guy was a real charmer.
You know the type , too smooth by far.
Now there are charmers and there are charming men.
There's a difference.
A charmer is that way to every one , they can't help themselves it just happens. Bruce Willis , Johnny Depp , and George Clooney are examples of charmers.
A charming man only uses it on people of interest , he can turn it off just like that if he wants to. John Cusack , Keanu Reeves , Robert Downey Jr are examples of charming men.
I love charming men and am highly entertained by charmers so I can find something attractive in both.
It's the inner confidence I'm interested in.
Is it because I'm receptive to them ?
How do you get that I wonder , are you born with it or is it taught , who knows but I'm happy they are part of this world. Where would we be without them ?
But even at the gas station , I ran in and paid because I needed to get a pack of American Spirits.
I stopped smoking in 95 but every Chinese New Year I smoke a cigarette before I go to bed. Just one and then I keep the pack for awhile just to prove I've quit.
It was one of the hardest things I've ever done. I don't preach to others about quitting. They'll stop when they're ready and riding some one's ass about something never works.
Now the poor guy at the counter was one of these guys who look at you sideways and are already turning red but he still gave it his best.
He was sweet but the only woman who's going to be interested in that kind of man is much meeker than the likes of me.
I have on occasion if the mood strikes flirted back with this type of guy just because of how excited they get from it.
You have to be careful though and make sure you don't see them regularly or they'll think you feel like playing every time.
I try not to hurt their feelings because they wound easily but he was easy to put off.
I like doing it when I'm traveling on the road because you don't have to worry about ever seeing them again.
Now others will tell you differently but those are the only men it's safe to flirt with.
Unless of course your serious about him and want to be with him. Only flirt with a man you love.
Otherwise there's too much chance of misunderstanding.
Don't do it.
That's exactly why I'm staying the hell away from that grocery store. I can go somewhere else to shop.
I'm not looking for trouble , I've come too far and I'm almost there.
Since trouble seems to be looking for me I'm going to stay home until whatever this is passes.
I know it's more than likely me , being more sensitive and noticing things I wouldn't normally notice.
Keanu's not giving me anything to work with and here's John evidently interested in someone.
He sent out some more video's to her.
Took me back to the early MTV days though so thank you for that.
I sent him wishes of hope and prosperity for Chinese New Year. I'd go for a tumble with him if he wasn't involved.
God knows he'll take your breath away and wear you out but that's the way of it isn't it ?
Oh well , since both of my guys aren't interested at least I have my books and my wine and chocolate...
Bugger that , I think I'll put some more Damaged people up. One thing about reading your own stuff , you know what's going to happen and there aren't any surprises.
While I was on YouTube I was checking out some old stuff after I watched John's vids
this made me dream about life with Keanu which led to searching out some Bob Seger and the Silver Bullet Band
I just realized that the second time Keanu took me for a ride is still in my head so I'm going to get that on the computer and get it up here. When I'm writing about Keanu I listen to Bob Seger and Garth Brooks. I can't listen to any of their music without thinking of him.
It's before we go to WV so this is all out of wack but wtf , nobody cares !
I have everything I need except of course the most important thing , someone to share it with. My husband doesn't celebrate it
he says he's not Chinese so it's stupid.
Ah well I have movies that affect me and some Madeliene Peyroux on the way so fuck him I'm going for a ride in the moonlight with Keanu tonight.
Imaginary lovers never let you down,
when all the others turn you away they're around.
One thing I've learned is that you can't fight nature so I'm just going to give in to it and enjoy the ride.
You can come if you want to...
Cheers , Amelie
