I have , well not a real person , I mean he is a real person , but he's unattainable.
I put a post on here explaining my experiment with having an imaginary lover.
It's better than not having one but it's been so long now and I know it's pointless yet I can't seem to stop.
He's like a bad habit , you know you should quit but the guilty pleasure is so enticing.
I wish he'd get married so I could quit him. Knowing he was with someone he loved would kill our clandestine relationship. Don't fuck around with married men. Believe me you pay.
Please Bébé for both our sakes open your heart and close your mind a little.
You are worthy of love , look how long I've loved you.
Thinking of him this morning , it's too early. Got this in an email
this morning and it set me off.
Filming 47 Ronin. Now he's doing Man Of Tai Chi and will be gone for a long time. it's his baby completely so he'll be spending every minute with it .
I'm starting to think he's considering leaving the US. Couldn't blame him but sure would miss him.
Otherwise it's going to be a long day.
Maybe I'll put in Henry's Crime and have a cup of tea.
Cheers , Amelie
